Long distance one sided love with him .

Again , i miss you . I tried everything to let go this feeling but i never succeeded. I miss you the must . Deep inside I want you to miss me  but you don't. Thousand times I tried to tell you, not just a friend , be my companion but millions times I failed . There is a deep fear in me that what if I lost you even as a friend. My wrong words at wrong time could ruin our 11 years of friendship. I don't know if I will ever dare to tell you my feelings toward you  but I will assure you that I won't let our  beautiful friendship been ruined .
           It's becoming hard for me to hide my feelings toward you . I want to tell you what I  feel but what if I lose you. I can't even imagine your reaction neither I can see the future. Your actions never made me feel you are interested in me the way I am.

          Within this period you were involved with two girls. I know all as you shared all.you asked for my suggestions. you even send me the pictures of girls to choose which one then how can't I fear to tell you my feelings for you. It's not that I didn't tried to release my feelings but it didn't work out. To forget you,  I got into a relationship but I was totally  unsuccessful . whenever he was with me,  I wanted you to be with me and I couldn't break other people heart as I already know how it feels.

      My life became a nightmare. A nightmare  that haunts me every single day . I am madly in love with a person with whom I hardly have any chance but I don't want to give up on him because I believe in the strength of my love. I can't Skype him., I can't call him for no reasons, I can't text him because we are hardly even friends.so I just wait for those real occasions where I can see him, that to from a distance stealing his glimpses every now and then.

      You can't imagine the pain of being in long-distance-one-sided love. Life becomes hell, a nightmare that you want to come out of as soon as possible. But still, you stay there hoping that one day, this nightmare would turn out to be a beautiful dream. After all, "it's the possibility of having a dream come true that makes life interesting.